- jimlouis 2-25-2007 5:52 pm [link]
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NYC Yesterday
NYC yesterday--before the onset of this tornadic ice age, when you could leave your dwelling without fear of being picked up like a scrap of paper and blown in three directions in as many seconds and furthermore become frozen like a leaf of lettuce dipped in liquid nitrogen and then propelled sideways into a striped, painted brick wall by 60 mph northeasterly gusts of wind, to shatter into shards of yourself as thin and fragmented as a broken, light, dimming bulb, coming home, coming home to ask yourself why, why do I exist?--I had breakfast with Bernadette.
Did you bring your glasses?
No, I forgot. You?
No.
Could just get eggs and bacon and grits or something. I know they have those three things here.
Yeah, Bernadette said, squinting at her menu, while moving it to and fro like the slide on a trombone.
The Hispanic waiter said, there is no grits.
I ordered them anyway.
No grits. Potato, hash.
I became perplexed.
He and Bernadette tried to help me understand about potato, hash. I wondered if they meant hashbrowns, and if so, why would they not just say so? There was a sense of mild panic as we all waited to see what I would do; if I would be able to pull out of this breakfast ordering tailspin. When prodded verbally by Bernadette, and the waiter's furrowed brow, both of them communicating the same thing, did I want that, I said I guess so?
Bernadette thinks I am the funniest person since Slim Pickens, even when I'm not trying to be.
Later I took pictures of a small black and white dog with Marty Feldman eyes as Bernadette and her niece gently coerced him to be like Gumby or Pokey and spell out the letters L-O-V-E, for a Valentine's card. This was not the first time this dog had performed this favor but the previous pictures were unavailable, so the dog, thinking maybe somebody would play catch with him if he complied, complied. I kicked the ball across the cement floor before leaving but by the time the dog retrieved it so we could do it again and again and again, I was out the door with Bernadette to see on 2nd Avenue, Children of Men, which is the finest incredibly violent brooding dark tale of a nearly hopeless future I have seen in some time.
NYC yesterday--before the onset of this tornadic ice age, when you could leave your dwelling without fear of being picked up like a scrap of paper and blown in three directions in as many seconds and furthermore become frozen like a leaf of lettuce dipped in liquid nitrogen and then propelled sideways into a striped, painted brick wall by 60 mph northeasterly gusts of wind, to shatter into shards of yourself as thin and fragmented as a broken, light, dimming bulb, coming home, coming home to ask yourself why, why do I exist?--I had breakfast with Bernadette.
Did you bring your glasses?
No, I forgot. You?
No.
Could just get eggs and bacon and grits or something. I know they have those three things here.
Yeah, Bernadette said, squinting at her menu, while moving it to and fro like the slide on a trombone.
The Hispanic waiter said, there is no grits.
I ordered them anyway.
No grits. Potato, hash.
I became perplexed.
He and Bernadette tried to help me understand about potato, hash. I wondered if they meant hashbrowns, and if so, why would they not just say so? There was a sense of mild panic as we all waited to see what I would do; if I would be able to pull out of this breakfast ordering tailspin. When prodded verbally by Bernadette, and the waiter's furrowed brow, both of them communicating the same thing, did I want that, I said I guess so?
Bernadette thinks I am the funniest person since Slim Pickens, even when I'm not trying to be.
Later I took pictures of a small black and white dog with Marty Feldman eyes as Bernadette and her niece gently coerced him to be like Gumby or Pokey and spell out the letters L-O-V-E, for a Valentine's card. This was not the first time this dog had performed this favor but the previous pictures were unavailable, so the dog, thinking maybe somebody would play catch with him if he complied, complied. I kicked the ball across the cement floor before leaving but by the time the dog retrieved it so we could do it again and again and again, I was out the door with Bernadette to see on 2nd Avenue, Children of Men, which is the finest incredibly violent brooding dark tale of a nearly hopeless future I have seen in some time.
Nutrias Don't Wear Flippers
Oregon snorkeler mistaken for rodent, shot in face. That is an actual news headline and there is no way I'm coming up with anything better than that. News people must live for days like this. Going out on a fairly routine call, snorkeler shot in the water, blah blah, but then as a bonus you get a 60 year-old, dope smoking, pill popping shooter who states in his defense that he thought the snorkeler was a giant rodent, or in fact just an average sized nutria, which is an introduced South American specie of rodent, brought to Louisiana in the 40s for some ill-conceived reason, and now has pretty much taken over that state. Nutria-glamorizing ad campaigns which have tried to convince the Louisiana populous that nutrias are tasty (try some nutria chili), or fashionable (dawling, I love your full length nutria), have mostly fallen flat.
At some point, the Louisiana nutria, hunted to near extinction (not even close) and convinced that they would never defeat Sheriff Harry Lee, began a campaign of their own entitled Run for your Life. The general consensus among the Louisiana nutria was that their homeland, Argentina, was just too far away and also fearing ridicule for the curious version of French they now spoke, they headed to the closest destination where people also spoke a curious dialect, East Texas. Of course that went badly, as Texans are a very gun-friendly people, and also none of the younger nutria wanted to give up their sexier hybrid French language for that curious language being spoken in Texas. Oklahoma proved not much better. Kansas, forget about it, so in time they made their way to Oregon,which was believed to be more progressive.
But the snorkeler incident has raised some fears in the Oregon nutria community that there may be a backlash effect and that the heretofore environmentally-evolved Oregonian may take to the Louisiana model of nutria slaughtering so that the question of mistaking a nutria for an even more beloved Oregon specie, the snorkeler, becomes a moot question indeed. There is even rumor that focus groups have begun to address the difficult issue. It is generally agreed that slogans are an effective way to sell a pogrom campaign to a hesitant public and some of the suggested slogans so far considered are--Love a Snorkeler, Kill a Nutria. It's Just a Rodent, So eRATicatem. Nutrias Are Not My Friends, But Snorkelers Are. My Dad Is Not a Nutria. Nutrias Don't Wear Flippers. On a Clear Day You Can See Sea Anemone. Some Fish Fly But How Many Nutrias Snorkel? To Sir With Love. Mission Accomplished.
Oregon snorkeler mistaken for rodent, shot in face. That is an actual news headline and there is no way I'm coming up with anything better than that. News people must live for days like this. Going out on a fairly routine call, snorkeler shot in the water, blah blah, but then as a bonus you get a 60 year-old, dope smoking, pill popping shooter who states in his defense that he thought the snorkeler was a giant rodent, or in fact just an average sized nutria, which is an introduced South American specie of rodent, brought to Louisiana in the 40s for some ill-conceived reason, and now has pretty much taken over that state. Nutria-glamorizing ad campaigns which have tried to convince the Louisiana populous that nutrias are tasty (try some nutria chili), or fashionable (dawling, I love your full length nutria), have mostly fallen flat.
At some point, the Louisiana nutria, hunted to near extinction (not even close) and convinced that they would never defeat Sheriff Harry Lee, began a campaign of their own entitled Run for your Life. The general consensus among the Louisiana nutria was that their homeland, Argentina, was just too far away and also fearing ridicule for the curious version of French they now spoke, they headed to the closest destination where people also spoke a curious dialect, East Texas. Of course that went badly, as Texans are a very gun-friendly people, and also none of the younger nutria wanted to give up their sexier hybrid French language for that curious language being spoken in Texas. Oklahoma proved not much better. Kansas, forget about it, so in time they made their way to Oregon,which was believed to be more progressive.
But the snorkeler incident has raised some fears in the Oregon nutria community that there may be a backlash effect and that the heretofore environmentally-evolved Oregonian may take to the Louisiana model of nutria slaughtering so that the question of mistaking a nutria for an even more beloved Oregon specie, the snorkeler, becomes a moot question indeed. There is even rumor that focus groups have begun to address the difficult issue. It is generally agreed that slogans are an effective way to sell a pogrom campaign to a hesitant public and some of the suggested slogans so far considered are--Love a Snorkeler, Kill a Nutria. It's Just a Rodent, So eRATicatem. Nutrias Are Not My Friends, But Snorkelers Are. My Dad Is Not a Nutria. Nutrias Don't Wear Flippers. On a Clear Day You Can See Sea Anemone. Some Fish Fly But How Many Nutrias Snorkel? To Sir With Love. Mission Accomplished.
The Lonely Metaphor
At the cafe while ripping the last bits of ribeye meat free from a juicy wad of fat I overheard from another table the supposition that the reason a woman I don't know was so crotchety was because, according to her doctor, her heart was like an old hose left outside in the rain and sun, and was all dry rotted.
And as much as I try to make something of this metaphor, I can't really seem to get anywhere with it. So for now it will just stand alone, as is.
At the cafe while ripping the last bits of ribeye meat free from a juicy wad of fat I overheard from another table the supposition that the reason a woman I don't know was so crotchety was because, according to her doctor, her heart was like an old hose left outside in the rain and sun, and was all dry rotted.
And as much as I try to make something of this metaphor, I can't really seem to get anywhere with it. So for now it will just stand alone, as is.
Sassy Basil
I'm having tea for breakfast because I ran out of coffee five days ago. There is some oatmeal on the stove incubating. I didn't use enough water so it almost burnt up but I added extra water and now it seems fine although lightly toasted. On the breakfast table is a basil plant wrapped in a clear plastic cone and if you keep the roots wet (there's no dirt) it will live for a while and be your fresh basil supply, even though when alone you rarely cook anything more ambitious than toast, or oatmeal, two things which generally do not benefit from fresh basil. Although I guess there is something you can do with a toast-like product and fresh basil, if you add some other ingredients. I would rather not at this time delve too deeply into the depths of my culinary in-expertise.
But the thing about these fresh, plastic cone-wrapped basil plants is I think they are grown in a controlled laboratory or some otherwise stress free environment and they suffer from it. They don't really smell that sweet. They smell like a picture of a basil plant. Or if you had a basil plant next to a mirror and you sniffed the mirror, that is what this plant smelled like.
I say smelled like, past tense, because I, not entirely on purpose, quit watering the basil and it shriveled up to a state that had you seen it you would have surely remarked--looks like you thoroughly killed that basil. I thought so too and felt that pang, that unique, resonating anguish we living feel about death. Though, as it was only a plant, my anguish was relatively short-lived. I felt the anguish and then in probably only a matter of minutes was thinking about other things, like who would win the Superbowl. Is it true you can never remember who lost the Superbowl? If you are ever faced with the question of who lost a Superbowl you could play the odds and guess Minnesota or Buffalo, with their eight cumulative losses.
It was likely a state of denial that had me so summarily moving past the demise of the basil and conjunctively, watering it after it was dead. The miracle here is like that reworded blues standard, my basil come back to me, and in the first day that formerly thriving, dull-smelling basil plant, which was now barely a wad of chloroform, showed some effort to live and in the days following showed not only the will to live but the desire to thrive, wrapped in plastic on my breakfast table.
It is now back to its former state of good health and we--the basil plant and I--joke about the past as if the past has no other purpose but to amuse us.
You know basil, you smell a lot sweeter now than you did before I almost killed you.
Yeah, well, you know what they say--what doesn't kill you makes you sweeter.
I think that's--stronger.
What?
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
If you say so.
Hey basil, don't sass me or I will make pesto out of you. And put you on a piece of fancy toast. With tomato. Some olive oil. A little mozzarello. Salt and pepper.
I'm having tea for breakfast because I ran out of coffee five days ago. There is some oatmeal on the stove incubating. I didn't use enough water so it almost burnt up but I added extra water and now it seems fine although lightly toasted. On the breakfast table is a basil plant wrapped in a clear plastic cone and if you keep the roots wet (there's no dirt) it will live for a while and be your fresh basil supply, even though when alone you rarely cook anything more ambitious than toast, or oatmeal, two things which generally do not benefit from fresh basil. Although I guess there is something you can do with a toast-like product and fresh basil, if you add some other ingredients. I would rather not at this time delve too deeply into the depths of my culinary in-expertise.
But the thing about these fresh, plastic cone-wrapped basil plants is I think they are grown in a controlled laboratory or some otherwise stress free environment and they suffer from it. They don't really smell that sweet. They smell like a picture of a basil plant. Or if you had a basil plant next to a mirror and you sniffed the mirror, that is what this plant smelled like.
I say smelled like, past tense, because I, not entirely on purpose, quit watering the basil and it shriveled up to a state that had you seen it you would have surely remarked--looks like you thoroughly killed that basil. I thought so too and felt that pang, that unique, resonating anguish we living feel about death. Though, as it was only a plant, my anguish was relatively short-lived. I felt the anguish and then in probably only a matter of minutes was thinking about other things, like who would win the Superbowl. Is it true you can never remember who lost the Superbowl? If you are ever faced with the question of who lost a Superbowl you could play the odds and guess Minnesota or Buffalo, with their eight cumulative losses.
It was likely a state of denial that had me so summarily moving past the demise of the basil and conjunctively, watering it after it was dead. The miracle here is like that reworded blues standard, my basil come back to me, and in the first day that formerly thriving, dull-smelling basil plant, which was now barely a wad of chloroform, showed some effort to live and in the days following showed not only the will to live but the desire to thrive, wrapped in plastic on my breakfast table.
It is now back to its former state of good health and we--the basil plant and I--joke about the past as if the past has no other purpose but to amuse us.
You know basil, you smell a lot sweeter now than you did before I almost killed you.
Yeah, well, you know what they say--what doesn't kill you makes you sweeter.
I think that's--stronger.
What?
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
If you say so.
Hey basil, don't sass me or I will make pesto out of you. And put you on a piece of fancy toast. With tomato. Some olive oil. A little mozzarello. Salt and pepper.
Global Warming
I can hardly see that it is debatable that we humans will hurry up the ending of our planet, be it by not loving each other enough or overuse of hair spray, but I would think that if the brain trust of scientists who put out this latest study on Global Warming wanted ME to take it seriously, they would have released it in the summer when it's really hot. Or even a month ago when it was an unseasonably warm winter month here on the east coast. It would have made greater impact on my simple-minded nature.
15, 11, 5, 8, 13, 16--These are not lottery numbers (but feel free to play them), they are the nighttime lows for my part of Virginia for the next six days. Of course, if I look at the weather for the whole country I see that there are a large number of states over this same time period that will be experiencing lows in double digit negative numbers. Forty or fifty below zero? I shudder, really I do, at the thought of it. I guess if I lived in N. Dakota and came to visit Virginia this weekend, where it might be a balmy 5 degrees one morning, I would think, jiminy, or holy cow, this global warming thing is for real.
I can hardly see that it is debatable that we humans will hurry up the ending of our planet, be it by not loving each other enough or overuse of hair spray, but I would think that if the brain trust of scientists who put out this latest study on Global Warming wanted ME to take it seriously, they would have released it in the summer when it's really hot. Or even a month ago when it was an unseasonably warm winter month here on the east coast. It would have made greater impact on my simple-minded nature.
15, 11, 5, 8, 13, 16--These are not lottery numbers (but feel free to play them), they are the nighttime lows for my part of Virginia for the next six days. Of course, if I look at the weather for the whole country I see that there are a large number of states over this same time period that will be experiencing lows in double digit negative numbers. Forty or fifty below zero? I shudder, really I do, at the thought of it. I guess if I lived in N. Dakota and came to visit Virginia this weekend, where it might be a balmy 5 degrees one morning, I would think, jiminy, or holy cow, this global warming thing is for real.
Can We Stop At Stuckey's?
Decided to clean up the hard drive a little and get rid of some files that seem under used or superfluous and in doing so accidently deleted all my audio drivers, or something, I don't really know what I did, nor do I want to pretend that this was some sort of well thought out computer maintenance scheme by a person who goes about boldly and courageously taking care of business in a kick ass and take names fashion. This clean up was more like one of those actions that would come under the general heading of dangerously bored. These are the types of periods that were it a little warmer I would be out building a fire in a fire pit and throwing into it all the leftover pyrotechnic devices that weren't exploded in the foyer of the bighouse several months ago.
So I lost all sound on this computer and my first step after doing this was to convince myself that sound on a computer is not all that important. I can do without sound, I told myself. And I could, too, but after awhile it just seemed dumb to make this relatively minor sacrifice so I tried to download a driver that seemed like it might fit from a page officially sanctioned by Microsoft. But when I tried to install the driver my Microsoft driven OS informed me that the software was not certified and I that I would go to hell for my bold, ill-conceived actions. And then this computer crashed, a thing it rarely does. I rebooted and carried out the same ill-conceived process a couple more times before moving on to something else.
Oh, a Vaio recovery system. That looks promising. It informs me that I can restore my computer to its fresh out of the store original settings or I can pick a date on a calendar and restore to whatever the settings were at that time. I don't need a recovery disc or any of the original softwares, which is great news because I would not have them anyway. The very idea of this frankly blows my mind. I know that deleted things on a hard drive are not actually deleted but just stored out of the way in some digital compartment, I mean I had heard this before, but still the idea that this computer is holding on to my past and every original installed software and also those I have downloaded and then becoming bored with, deleted, seems to carry with it such an amazing level of computational complexity that I find myself becoming in awe of this little device which I generally speaking, take for granted.
I only had to go back two days but instead I picked a date over two weeks ago and presto, I got sound. I don't know why I picked the date I did but it was stuck in my mind for some reason and after I realized I could not access the Internet it came to me that the day I had picked was the day the guys came and hooked up my cable and for some extra change configured my wireless router for me. The restore date is actually very specific and looking at the hour I could see that I had restored to an exact moment--10:43 a.m on January 11th. This was four hours before the guys had come and hooked me up and typed some commands into this laptop which made it communicate with the router. So I reconfigured for a time that to the system would now be the future but was still actually the past. A past that had no awareness I would in a couple of days forward delete something that controlled my sound. Or, actually, maybe this was a past that did have an awareness of the future, since it was a "future" that had already happened.
I'm telling you, when this worked it made me feel in touch with something extra-normal and made me feel close to an idea that is way bigger than I, like that something you might feel in nature, or in church, or under the influence of a psychotropic agent. I was in a sense, if only two dimensionally, time traveling. So yeah, time traveling, that's what I did this week. And some of it was good.
Decided to clean up the hard drive a little and get rid of some files that seem under used or superfluous and in doing so accidently deleted all my audio drivers, or something, I don't really know what I did, nor do I want to pretend that this was some sort of well thought out computer maintenance scheme by a person who goes about boldly and courageously taking care of business in a kick ass and take names fashion. This clean up was more like one of those actions that would come under the general heading of dangerously bored. These are the types of periods that were it a little warmer I would be out building a fire in a fire pit and throwing into it all the leftover pyrotechnic devices that weren't exploded in the foyer of the bighouse several months ago.
So I lost all sound on this computer and my first step after doing this was to convince myself that sound on a computer is not all that important. I can do without sound, I told myself. And I could, too, but after awhile it just seemed dumb to make this relatively minor sacrifice so I tried to download a driver that seemed like it might fit from a page officially sanctioned by Microsoft. But when I tried to install the driver my Microsoft driven OS informed me that the software was not certified and I that I would go to hell for my bold, ill-conceived actions. And then this computer crashed, a thing it rarely does. I rebooted and carried out the same ill-conceived process a couple more times before moving on to something else.
Oh, a Vaio recovery system. That looks promising. It informs me that I can restore my computer to its fresh out of the store original settings or I can pick a date on a calendar and restore to whatever the settings were at that time. I don't need a recovery disc or any of the original softwares, which is great news because I would not have them anyway. The very idea of this frankly blows my mind. I know that deleted things on a hard drive are not actually deleted but just stored out of the way in some digital compartment, I mean I had heard this before, but still the idea that this computer is holding on to my past and every original installed software and also those I have downloaded and then becoming bored with, deleted, seems to carry with it such an amazing level of computational complexity that I find myself becoming in awe of this little device which I generally speaking, take for granted.
I only had to go back two days but instead I picked a date over two weeks ago and presto, I got sound. I don't know why I picked the date I did but it was stuck in my mind for some reason and after I realized I could not access the Internet it came to me that the day I had picked was the day the guys came and hooked up my cable and for some extra change configured my wireless router for me. The restore date is actually very specific and looking at the hour I could see that I had restored to an exact moment--10:43 a.m on January 11th. This was four hours before the guys had come and hooked me up and typed some commands into this laptop which made it communicate with the router. So I reconfigured for a time that to the system would now be the future but was still actually the past. A past that had no awareness I would in a couple of days forward delete something that controlled my sound. Or, actually, maybe this was a past that did have an awareness of the future, since it was a "future" that had already happened.
I'm telling you, when this worked it made me feel in touch with something extra-normal and made me feel close to an idea that is way bigger than I, like that something you might feel in nature, or in church, or under the influence of a psychotropic agent. I was in a sense, if only two dimensionally, time traveling. So yeah, time traveling, that's what I did this week. And some of it was good.
Not To Mention XY-Wing
It is 15 degrees this morning but feels like 8. I am just going to take the computer's word for it. Aren't I curious about what 8 feels like? No I'm not. I have taken up Sudoku and all my curiosity is now used considering the candidates 1 thru 9, times 81. Ok, less than 81. A Sudoku puzzle with 81 blank cells. That would be a very hard one. I am working on one now with 55 blank cells and it is pretty hard. It is safe to say that I have perfected the technique of recognizing single candidates and hidden single candidates but am not as comfortable with recognizing at a glance locked candidates or naked pairs, triples or quads and am a long long way from attempting any X-Wing or Swordfish maneuvers, although am cautiously and optimistically looking forward to the day when I can in the context of any type of maneuver use those terms.
It is 15 degrees this morning but feels like 8. I am just going to take the computer's word for it. Aren't I curious about what 8 feels like? No I'm not. I have taken up Sudoku and all my curiosity is now used considering the candidates 1 thru 9, times 81. Ok, less than 81. A Sudoku puzzle with 81 blank cells. That would be a very hard one. I am working on one now with 55 blank cells and it is pretty hard. It is safe to say that I have perfected the technique of recognizing single candidates and hidden single candidates but am not as comfortable with recognizing at a glance locked candidates or naked pairs, triples or quads and am a long long way from attempting any X-Wing or Swordfish maneuvers, although am cautiously and optimistically looking forward to the day when I can in the context of any type of maneuver use those terms.