- jimlouis 12-18-2007 1:43 am [link]
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Books And Brakes
The rain is out there on the other side of that window pane mainly in Spain. V caught her first mouse last night. I don't know what she did with it. I don't see it anywhere this morning. I must say it is one of the more repellent aspects of the well fed house cat how long they can go about the torturing of mice. I am by lack of intervention, complicit. I don't know if printing up Save the Mouse bumper stickers would do any good but it is an idea that runs through my mind.
I have taken to reading downloaded novels on this computer. It is something I have wanted to do for some time but found the format unpleasant until discovering that Google has actual photo-scanned copies of real books, which you can download in PDF format. Sometimes you can see the finger of a person from Stanford or Harvard or Michigan or the NY Library copied on the page. And the occasional check mark or underlined word of some past student. You are limited to older works whose copyright protection has expired but that hardly seems a disadvantage when you realize that that limit includes Twain, Dreiser, Maugham, Shaw, Turgenev, Chekhov, London, Jefferson, Franklin, Adams, Lincoln, Boswell, Epictetus, Spinoza, and Thoreau and Emerson and Blake and a good many others. I have finished Maugham's , The Moon and Sixpence, an accounting of Gauguin as played by Charles Strickland, and Maupassant's, Bel-Ami, an engaging tale of love and deceit and acquisition, and am now riding the rails with Jack London in his novel, The Road. I am looking ahead to Treasure Island, or perhaps Tom Sawyer.
I can see the light coming on now this early morning and so really must initiate a motion towards engaging myself in the real world. I should take the Jeep to that mechanic in Sperryville and get my windshield replaced and brakes redone. But before that I should go 16 miles to Front Royal for groceries and then back here to the Post Office and the bank up on 211. I don't have to get dressed because I fell asleep last night fully clothed.
The rain is out there on the other side of that window pane mainly in Spain. V caught her first mouse last night. I don't know what she did with it. I don't see it anywhere this morning. I must say it is one of the more repellent aspects of the well fed house cat how long they can go about the torturing of mice. I am by lack of intervention, complicit. I don't know if printing up Save the Mouse bumper stickers would do any good but it is an idea that runs through my mind.
I have taken to reading downloaded novels on this computer. It is something I have wanted to do for some time but found the format unpleasant until discovering that Google has actual photo-scanned copies of real books, which you can download in PDF format. Sometimes you can see the finger of a person from Stanford or Harvard or Michigan or the NY Library copied on the page. And the occasional check mark or underlined word of some past student. You are limited to older works whose copyright protection has expired but that hardly seems a disadvantage when you realize that that limit includes Twain, Dreiser, Maugham, Shaw, Turgenev, Chekhov, London, Jefferson, Franklin, Adams, Lincoln, Boswell, Epictetus, Spinoza, and Thoreau and Emerson and Blake and a good many others. I have finished Maugham's , The Moon and Sixpence, an accounting of Gauguin as played by Charles Strickland, and Maupassant's, Bel-Ami, an engaging tale of love and deceit and acquisition, and am now riding the rails with Jack London in his novel, The Road. I am looking ahead to Treasure Island, or perhaps Tom Sawyer.
I can see the light coming on now this early morning and so really must initiate a motion towards engaging myself in the real world. I should take the Jeep to that mechanic in Sperryville and get my windshield replaced and brakes redone. But before that I should go 16 miles to Front Royal for groceries and then back here to the Post Office and the bank up on 211. I don't have to get dressed because I fell asleep last night fully clothed.
Not In Rochester
I'll tell you one thing. It's colder than a frozen possum's butt out there. Wouldn't be so bad without the 30 mph northern gusts. I'm raking leaves in a windstorm. I come in and, frankly, the cat looks a little too happy so I put her out. The sun was shining for awhile and I thought I would work on my tan while me and the cat rake leaves in a windstorm. But it's clouded up now and little snowflakes are falling even though it's forty degrees. Me and the cat we sit back and think about how fortunate we are. The cat says, I am happy not to be in Rochester.
The sun is shining over there on Mt. Marshall but not over here in the little forest behind my house. The leaves are wet and plentiful. No, I'm not raking up the pine needles. I wish I had me a little dead leaf eating goat. Yeah, I hear you, be careful what you wish for. Especially if you are not going to punctate any better than that. I brought the cat in but I had to put her back out for biting me. I'm disappointed in you I yelled after her as she ran through the hole in the breezeway screen. She favors my right arm. I have 19 puncture marks and six beautiful scratches.
I'll tell you one thing. It's colder than a frozen possum's butt out there. Wouldn't be so bad without the 30 mph northern gusts. I'm raking leaves in a windstorm. I come in and, frankly, the cat looks a little too happy so I put her out. The sun was shining for awhile and I thought I would work on my tan while me and the cat rake leaves in a windstorm. But it's clouded up now and little snowflakes are falling even though it's forty degrees. Me and the cat we sit back and think about how fortunate we are. The cat says, I am happy not to be in Rochester.
The sun is shining over there on Mt. Marshall but not over here in the little forest behind my house. The leaves are wet and plentiful. No, I'm not raking up the pine needles. I wish I had me a little dead leaf eating goat. Yeah, I hear you, be careful what you wish for. Especially if you are not going to punctate any better than that. I brought the cat in but I had to put her back out for biting me. I'm disappointed in you I yelled after her as she ran through the hole in the breezeway screen. She favors my right arm. I have 19 puncture marks and six beautiful scratches.
A Small Terrarium
She had a ruddy complexion and a grocery cart full of spinach. Other products in her cart were prominently emblazoned with the word, organic. Her clothing was brightly colored and possibly hand woven in the Himalayas. These things I noticed with averted glances. Earlier, in the frozen food section, I had not felt this level of self consciousness while inspecting the carts of my fellow frozen food shoppers. I had made no effort then to cover my frozen pizzas and pot pies and meatloaf with mashed potato dinners and the six pack of frosted cupcakes with the little bit of healthy looking produce in my cart--the bananas, the oranges, the brussel sprouts and sweet potatoes. But now the contents of my cart seemed a travesty compared to this woman's in the checkout to my right.
I've already eaten three of the cupcakes and I sincerely doubt the other three will make it very far into the day. I would only say they were disgusting if I were some kind of cupcake snob but I can at the very least admit they are not that tasty. The good new is, the plastic container they came in will last a lifetime, and would make a nifty see through jewelry box or perhaps a small terrarium.
She had a ruddy complexion and a grocery cart full of spinach. Other products in her cart were prominently emblazoned with the word, organic. Her clothing was brightly colored and possibly hand woven in the Himalayas. These things I noticed with averted glances. Earlier, in the frozen food section, I had not felt this level of self consciousness while inspecting the carts of my fellow frozen food shoppers. I had made no effort then to cover my frozen pizzas and pot pies and meatloaf with mashed potato dinners and the six pack of frosted cupcakes with the little bit of healthy looking produce in my cart--the bananas, the oranges, the brussel sprouts and sweet potatoes. But now the contents of my cart seemed a travesty compared to this woman's in the checkout to my right.
I've already eaten three of the cupcakes and I sincerely doubt the other three will make it very far into the day. I would only say they were disgusting if I were some kind of cupcake snob but I can at the very least admit they are not that tasty. The good new is, the plastic container they came in will last a lifetime, and would make a nifty see through jewelry box or perhaps a small terrarium.
A Voice From There
Yeah-uh, I sound a little funny this morning judging by the first words out of my mouth, which were--don't you go licking your butt and then come biting my arm. I'm not really talking about the subject matter. The previous statement pretty much qualifies as high discourse with me and the cat out here in this Virginia countryside. No, I have got me a minor cold, the trash can full of tissue and the red nose to prove it, moving down into my chest it is and I sound alien. I might not speak out loud again today and tomorrow I expect to be good as new and moving about under the cool fall sunshine performing tasks of arguable importance. The cat has moved over to that chair by the window and is staring very intently at one of my paisley shirts hanging from it. She's growing up fast and is now as big as a baby possum.
Traffic yesterday was easy out of NY which is a good thing because I was feeling puny and don't think I needed much challenge. I've got one of those EZ Passes now, attached to my cracked windshield, between the rear view mirror and the 3 month out of date inspection sticker and I just cruise right on through a toll booth without a care in the world. There were a lot of troopers on the road but I worry not so much about that by keeping to reasonable speeds and exuding by way of erect posture and hands at two and ten, a wholesome goodness.
After a few trips with nary a problem the cat has taken to minor car sickness attacks and while driving down Delancey I tried to stay focused on the road instead of her sitting up on top of the passenger seat back. Because she had a two inch long bubbly spit booger hanging from her chin. And then she would act like she had a bug in her ear and it would twitch and then her whole head would whip around and I would flinch in fear of being hit by flying cat spit. Like I said, I was already feeling puny. Puny includes a very light fever, some eye itching, mild body aches, and a hint of nausea. I was hoping to avoid too much contact with the spit. I had a T-shirt in my lap and waited for her to settle down there and when she did I wiped that crap off of her and kept driving on down the road.
Interesting. There was a paragraph here but now it's gone. I went to bed early last night, possibly as early as eight, and had a full night's sleep. I woke up before dawn and looked out the window over my head and thought how strange it was that the moon was setting in the east. As it turned out it was only 10:30 so I turned on the laptop and watched online a few episodes of Twilight Zone and then a couple of episodes of Dexter, a series in its second year about a do-gooder serial killer. A little after 2 I tried sleeping some more and the next time I woke up there were blazing red horizontal stripes across the early morning sky.
I lied about not talking out loud anymore today. I just received a call from Bill Macy in NY inviting me over to watch the Green Bay v. Dallas game tonight. Possibly the best NFL game of the year and it's on some stupid exclusive NFL network, that as far as I know, only Bill Macy of NY subscribes to. If I leave right now I could be there for game time. Then I got another call and it was a New Orleans area code and I get a lot of wrong number calls from Louisiana, which I ignore, but this one I answered, just to hear a voice from there and it was I am judging a black dude and I swear to you, after I said hello, he said, Spit? Yesterday on the Jersey Turnpike I got a call from someone sounding vaguely like Bernadette and just as I was starting to get familiar the woman said she was looking for James Alcindor. But I am not him and I told her so. And all the wrong numbers are sorry for disturbing me.
Yeah-uh, I sound a little funny this morning judging by the first words out of my mouth, which were--don't you go licking your butt and then come biting my arm. I'm not really talking about the subject matter. The previous statement pretty much qualifies as high discourse with me and the cat out here in this Virginia countryside. No, I have got me a minor cold, the trash can full of tissue and the red nose to prove it, moving down into my chest it is and I sound alien. I might not speak out loud again today and tomorrow I expect to be good as new and moving about under the cool fall sunshine performing tasks of arguable importance. The cat has moved over to that chair by the window and is staring very intently at one of my paisley shirts hanging from it. She's growing up fast and is now as big as a baby possum.
Traffic yesterday was easy out of NY which is a good thing because I was feeling puny and don't think I needed much challenge. I've got one of those EZ Passes now, attached to my cracked windshield, between the rear view mirror and the 3 month out of date inspection sticker and I just cruise right on through a toll booth without a care in the world. There were a lot of troopers on the road but I worry not so much about that by keeping to reasonable speeds and exuding by way of erect posture and hands at two and ten, a wholesome goodness.
After a few trips with nary a problem the cat has taken to minor car sickness attacks and while driving down Delancey I tried to stay focused on the road instead of her sitting up on top of the passenger seat back. Because she had a two inch long bubbly spit booger hanging from her chin. And then she would act like she had a bug in her ear and it would twitch and then her whole head would whip around and I would flinch in fear of being hit by flying cat spit. Like I said, I was already feeling puny. Puny includes a very light fever, some eye itching, mild body aches, and a hint of nausea. I was hoping to avoid too much contact with the spit. I had a T-shirt in my lap and waited for her to settle down there and when she did I wiped that crap off of her and kept driving on down the road.
Interesting. There was a paragraph here but now it's gone. I went to bed early last night, possibly as early as eight, and had a full night's sleep. I woke up before dawn and looked out the window over my head and thought how strange it was that the moon was setting in the east. As it turned out it was only 10:30 so I turned on the laptop and watched online a few episodes of Twilight Zone and then a couple of episodes of Dexter, a series in its second year about a do-gooder serial killer. A little after 2 I tried sleeping some more and the next time I woke up there were blazing red horizontal stripes across the early morning sky.
I lied about not talking out loud anymore today. I just received a call from Bill Macy in NY inviting me over to watch the Green Bay v. Dallas game tonight. Possibly the best NFL game of the year and it's on some stupid exclusive NFL network, that as far as I know, only Bill Macy of NY subscribes to. If I leave right now I could be there for game time. Then I got another call and it was a New Orleans area code and I get a lot of wrong number calls from Louisiana, which I ignore, but this one I answered, just to hear a voice from there and it was I am judging a black dude and I swear to you, after I said hello, he said, Spit? Yesterday on the Jersey Turnpike I got a call from someone sounding vaguely like Bernadette and just as I was starting to get familiar the woman said she was looking for James Alcindor. But I am not him and I told her so. And all the wrong numbers are sorry for disturbing me.
Bernadette's Penthouse
This afternoon in NY I was up on the roof of a five story building breathing fresh grey air on a rainy day. Twenty-five years ago the building and many around it were abandoned ghetto shells waiting for adventurous spirits, and were priced to sell. For a song and subsequent creative renovation financing a group of people in their mid twenties made a commitment to a neighborhood that was one of NY's seediest, long before the city itself made strides in assisting those who were looking for affordable places to own in Manhattan by finding ways to encourage the junkies and muggers to go to hell or find God. But this is not a campaign ad for the guy taking credit for that.
From this roof six years ago some of the residents watched the twin towers fall but today that view would be blocked by the big blue building, a nearly sold out condo tower with two units left, notably the penthouse with terrace, for 3.5 million, a sum almost but not quite 100 times what the owners paid for this entire building, before its gut renovation.
The above is mention of setting for the place I rest my head when visiting Bernadette. And today I did rest my head, because Bernadette gave me the day off from this trip's painting project, which was the basement office, now hopefully even more so than it was a clean well lighted space.
I read Mark Twain and floated down the river with Huck and Jim, only once dozing off, but so deeply I am still trying to get back. It seems I am tested way more in my dreams than I am in my waking life and I guess that is some testament to the level of ambition I exercise, or don't, while awake. This man, some facsimile of a former employer kept asking me am I afraid and I kept saying, no, not at all. But how can you trust that what you say in a dream is anything but the opposite of what you mean?
When I figure out what it is I'm afraid of I won't get back to you, I won't bore you with it, not so that you will notice anyhow.
This afternoon in NY I was up on the roof of a five story building breathing fresh grey air on a rainy day. Twenty-five years ago the building and many around it were abandoned ghetto shells waiting for adventurous spirits, and were priced to sell. For a song and subsequent creative renovation financing a group of people in their mid twenties made a commitment to a neighborhood that was one of NY's seediest, long before the city itself made strides in assisting those who were looking for affordable places to own in Manhattan by finding ways to encourage the junkies and muggers to go to hell or find God. But this is not a campaign ad for the guy taking credit for that.
From this roof six years ago some of the residents watched the twin towers fall but today that view would be blocked by the big blue building, a nearly sold out condo tower with two units left, notably the penthouse with terrace, for 3.5 million, a sum almost but not quite 100 times what the owners paid for this entire building, before its gut renovation.
The above is mention of setting for the place I rest my head when visiting Bernadette. And today I did rest my head, because Bernadette gave me the day off from this trip's painting project, which was the basement office, now hopefully even more so than it was a clean well lighted space.
I read Mark Twain and floated down the river with Huck and Jim, only once dozing off, but so deeply I am still trying to get back. It seems I am tested way more in my dreams than I am in my waking life and I guess that is some testament to the level of ambition I exercise, or don't, while awake. This man, some facsimile of a former employer kept asking me am I afraid and I kept saying, no, not at all. But how can you trust that what you say in a dream is anything but the opposite of what you mean?
When I figure out what it is I'm afraid of I won't get back to you, I won't bore you with it, not so that you will notice anyhow.
Cool Cat
Just now I was looking in the refrigerator for my cat. She hasn't really matured into that elusive stage yet so it is rare to enter the house and not have her come running, hey did you miss me, what do you want to do now, am I annoying you, is that one bowl of food all I get, it looks like your scabs have healed, can I shred your hands again, hey you wanna rub my belly? and so when she didn't come running I looked in the refrigerator first thing because she likes to climb in there anytime I open it. She wasn't in there so the next place I was going to look was the toilet or the bathtub, her second and third favorite places to hang out. She came yawning from out under the couch though which is where she goes to prove wrong my criticism that she is no better than a Swiffer. In her opinion she is every bit as good as a Swiffer and to prove this will grab onto any article of clothing I put in front of her and let me drag her all around the house over the wood floors. Or she will go under the couch where no Swiffer has ever been, and where her chances of being positively compared are greater.
I have been traveling with my cat since she was 8 weeks old, by car, to Pennsylvania and NYC these last couple of months but have been contemplating leaving her behind on upcoming trips. I was out of boredom perusing a kitty care web site recently and was struck by the vehemence of one or two replies to a woman who asked how soon would it be ok to leave her new kitten by itself for one day. Her kitten was five or six weeks old and the one day trip she was planning was a month a way. First the woman got reamed by a person who was from the camp that subscribes to the belief that kittens should not be weaned before 8 weeks. Conventional wisdom used to be 6 weeks but I guess now it is eight. Another responder seemed very upset at this woman and said--You got a VERY young kitten and are now thinking about going out of town and you got this kitten WHY? Ouch. It's good though to get advice about things you are not sure about, even at the risk of being yelled at. I think I will write to the web site and ask for how long is it ok to leave my kitten in the refrigerator.
Just now I was looking in the refrigerator for my cat. She hasn't really matured into that elusive stage yet so it is rare to enter the house and not have her come running, hey did you miss me, what do you want to do now, am I annoying you, is that one bowl of food all I get, it looks like your scabs have healed, can I shred your hands again, hey you wanna rub my belly? and so when she didn't come running I looked in the refrigerator first thing because she likes to climb in there anytime I open it. She wasn't in there so the next place I was going to look was the toilet or the bathtub, her second and third favorite places to hang out. She came yawning from out under the couch though which is where she goes to prove wrong my criticism that she is no better than a Swiffer. In her opinion she is every bit as good as a Swiffer and to prove this will grab onto any article of clothing I put in front of her and let me drag her all around the house over the wood floors. Or she will go under the couch where no Swiffer has ever been, and where her chances of being positively compared are greater.
I have been traveling with my cat since she was 8 weeks old, by car, to Pennsylvania and NYC these last couple of months but have been contemplating leaving her behind on upcoming trips. I was out of boredom perusing a kitty care web site recently and was struck by the vehemence of one or two replies to a woman who asked how soon would it be ok to leave her new kitten by itself for one day. Her kitten was five or six weeks old and the one day trip she was planning was a month a way. First the woman got reamed by a person who was from the camp that subscribes to the belief that kittens should not be weaned before 8 weeks. Conventional wisdom used to be 6 weeks but I guess now it is eight. Another responder seemed very upset at this woman and said--You got a VERY young kitten and are now thinking about going out of town and you got this kitten WHY? Ouch. It's good though to get advice about things you are not sure about, even at the risk of being yelled at. I think I will write to the web site and ask for how long is it ok to leave my kitten in the refrigerator.
Hole To China
My parents tried to instill in me a work ethic and I'm not saying they failed completely, I do have some relationship with the work ethic, but I have an eye that sometimes wanders too much, we can call it a lazy eye so as to avoid the calling of my whole being as lazy, although people have and I know at the very least that I am too lazy to argue with them.
It was my parents idea to have me mow lawns in my childhood neighborhood of Dallas, and a good thing too or I would still be digging holes to China in the young BC's backyard or crawling through the storm drains with his brother on hot summer days or engaging in other proclivities of the daydreamer. Hey, look at these pieces of metal shaped like the letter H I found on that construction site, let's form a Hercules Club. Well, in truth, I did those things and mowed lawns.
But after the day I stuck the tip of my right index finger in the shute of a running lawn mower, it was, without much discussion at all, or actually, any discussion, decided that my lawn mowing days were over. In those days you mowed and bagged the grass, edged the curbs and walk ways, and swept up with a broom the dirt and grass dug up by the edger. For six or eight dollars a lawn or as much as 12 dollars when people felt sorry for you, you little skinny, drenched in sweat, red headed freckled wisp of a boy. Pushing the mower down the alley to do Miss Connie's yard under the bright afternoon sun, Mr. Hanlin the New Zealander would say--look at how red your hair is Jimmy, I thought your hair was brown. It was both, a package deal, a two for one special.
My lawn mowing fortune amounted to 700 cash dollars and I kept it in my desk drawer. I have never been an avid spender so the money just sat there for a couple of years until my mother found it. She thought my banking habits were a bit reckless so she suggested opening a bank account and I did that. And it sat there for another couple of years until during the Carter administration, with my father's help, I invested in Georgia bank stock. About a year later it was the most active stock on the market, losing half its value. Shortly after that, having dropped out of college in favor of following the wandering eye, I cashed out and used 100 of it to pay back a girl who had bailed out a jail mate of mine, although as it turned out he had already been released, under the condition that he promised to go back to Canada. Mr. BC had put up my bond (it would not be the last time) and I would say it is unlikely that I have ever paid him back, although I'm sure I made some less than steadfast effort towards that goal. The rest of the money I used to finance my next low budget cross-country hitchhiking trip or to purchase cheeseburgers everyday until the mood to roam hit me next.
So how is it that I have ended up on an exclusive 40 acre property with two houses, a swimming pool, tennis and bocce courts, surrounded on every side by the Shenandoah foothills? Did I stare down that bear market and with money saved from collecting cans along the highway ride the next bull market to wondrous oblivion? No, I did not. This is a borrowed lifestyle, thanks again to BC, who on occasion wishes to resurrect the Hercules Club and sees me as the only credible Lieutenant. It is a good thing that with the Internet and highways and jet planes and trains the world can sometimes be shrunk down so that we are all closer to each other, because in that way when I leave here in the spring I can say not goodbye but see you soon.
My parents tried to instill in me a work ethic and I'm not saying they failed completely, I do have some relationship with the work ethic, but I have an eye that sometimes wanders too much, we can call it a lazy eye so as to avoid the calling of my whole being as lazy, although people have and I know at the very least that I am too lazy to argue with them.
It was my parents idea to have me mow lawns in my childhood neighborhood of Dallas, and a good thing too or I would still be digging holes to China in the young BC's backyard or crawling through the storm drains with his brother on hot summer days or engaging in other proclivities of the daydreamer. Hey, look at these pieces of metal shaped like the letter H I found on that construction site, let's form a Hercules Club. Well, in truth, I did those things and mowed lawns.
But after the day I stuck the tip of my right index finger in the shute of a running lawn mower, it was, without much discussion at all, or actually, any discussion, decided that my lawn mowing days were over. In those days you mowed and bagged the grass, edged the curbs and walk ways, and swept up with a broom the dirt and grass dug up by the edger. For six or eight dollars a lawn or as much as 12 dollars when people felt sorry for you, you little skinny, drenched in sweat, red headed freckled wisp of a boy. Pushing the mower down the alley to do Miss Connie's yard under the bright afternoon sun, Mr. Hanlin the New Zealander would say--look at how red your hair is Jimmy, I thought your hair was brown. It was both, a package deal, a two for one special.
My lawn mowing fortune amounted to 700 cash dollars and I kept it in my desk drawer. I have never been an avid spender so the money just sat there for a couple of years until my mother found it. She thought my banking habits were a bit reckless so she suggested opening a bank account and I did that. And it sat there for another couple of years until during the Carter administration, with my father's help, I invested in Georgia bank stock. About a year later it was the most active stock on the market, losing half its value. Shortly after that, having dropped out of college in favor of following the wandering eye, I cashed out and used 100 of it to pay back a girl who had bailed out a jail mate of mine, although as it turned out he had already been released, under the condition that he promised to go back to Canada. Mr. BC had put up my bond (it would not be the last time) and I would say it is unlikely that I have ever paid him back, although I'm sure I made some less than steadfast effort towards that goal. The rest of the money I used to finance my next low budget cross-country hitchhiking trip or to purchase cheeseburgers everyday until the mood to roam hit me next.
So how is it that I have ended up on an exclusive 40 acre property with two houses, a swimming pool, tennis and bocce courts, surrounded on every side by the Shenandoah foothills? Did I stare down that bear market and with money saved from collecting cans along the highway ride the next bull market to wondrous oblivion? No, I did not. This is a borrowed lifestyle, thanks again to BC, who on occasion wishes to resurrect the Hercules Club and sees me as the only credible Lieutenant. It is a good thing that with the Internet and highways and jet planes and trains the world can sometimes be shrunk down so that we are all closer to each other, because in that way when I leave here in the spring I can say not goodbye but see you soon.